Ghosts of other myselfs which populate my home and other oft-frequented paths.

I've just come back from an intensive Body Harmony training - 5 Days on the Spine - in Glastonbury, UK. Not only was it the best class I've ever taken with the founder Don MacFarland, and I've taken many brilliant classes with him, but I also have never embodied the learnings, transformations and new understandings to such a great extent.

So I find myself moving about my customary haunts .. ha ha! .. and sensing the wisps of ghosts of people I have also been, or could be, or even am in the process of becoming. It's a profoundly physical experience. Nothing conceptual about it.
I feel the shifting tissue expanding to accommodate their presence, or outbreaths realising and releasing their co-existence with me.

I'm enjoying the pace of my days.. it's slowed down enough to sense the shivers and other such recognitions as I move past these other me's.

As for not speaking to them... it's not out loud.. nor even in words.. but we're hanging and chewing the fat plenty. Theyre wont be any more walking by 'on the other side of the street' from me!

Following on from my last blog, this is a synchronistic dream of a Q&A.. it's over-ridden all the usual reasons for not blogging (like today's 'it's already tomorrow and I've got a flight at 8am' -  honest!)

(I'm going to do something of a DD on this one, meaning using Sandra's wonderful Diving Deeper mode of discovery).

Deep breath.....

So feeling into my feet on the tiles of the floor, and taking a deep breath down there to include them in this exploration, my awareness coming into my root chakra n pelvis.. and the squishy orange cushion on the uncomfortable but friendly old spanish chair i sit at... I'm clearly a body person, and up to the heart and out to the fingers tappin away.. .. my dream career is deeply rooted in the tissue, muscles, sinew and bone of this magical spacesuit-temple I'm flying in. And all the joys and sorrows, learnings, discoveries and euphorias I've learned to grok and/or just plain exprience here.

And I dream of sharing with any other who cares to (therein lies the rub - how much do I believe that other's 'care to'?) how joyous and profound this journey of flesh and blood, air and earth can be, and indeed IS... if we only open our eyes to it. All of our eyes.

The eyes in ever single cell, secure within it's oh so temporal membrane....

I deeply, physically (is it too much to say physiologically?) feel, and therefore trust, that much of where we need to do our learning and accepting and growing-beyond, as just one more sentient life form upon this gorgeous, teeming, sacred, growing, thriving, humming, singing ball of life, is embedded within every cell of every one of our temple-spacesuit-bodies.

One of the mayan languages refers to human beings as (in rough translation) cosmic-root-vibrators!! Now you may be seeing some kindof funky parsnip sex toy here.. but hey, stay with me... there could be EVEN more to it than that!!!  Just imagine...... ;-D))))) The earth-acupuncture we could be doing, at the very least!

Back to the dream career... there are SO many magical ways we can work with these here space-suit thangs, and no one here on Gaia really needs me to point that out.  But for the sake of this blog, and my voicing my OWN dream career here, what I really LOVE to do is sing with it, and dance with it and practice body work, above all BODY HARMONY® with it. (spot that funky little ® thing that I just got my spanish keyboard to work out!) So the Body Harmony (.org) website sucks... but the technique's the biscuit guys.. and I've been studying it for some extended trips around the sun here. Like 15 plus.... I've made it to consultant status.. hanging out for the teacher thing (if divorce doesn't come between me n the dates again, course I'd have to marry and divorce again!!).......

So I have a dream working it's way into the world here.. it's called GuruBody .. where the guru.. yeah, you got it!.. is the Body which leads the way:  how we feed it, what we feed it with, how we treat it, how we follow the 7 (or however many) ages we live through in it.. and so on.. and so forth.. and extendedly kind of ad-infinitum open-ended learning and exploring.

My dream is to help people to access these things for themselves, through working with their own GuruBodies.
So that they can learn to honour whatever their own guru is calling them to do. For me this is the ultimate way to integrate the wisdoms of our individual selves, with our cultures and stories whose shoulder we stand on and with the futures that are already resonating in our magical and oh-so-temporal cells.

I guess I'm already more than half way there - blessed be!

Aho!

I'm not sure where to start with this, except to say that your input does not need to be either Wise or Insightful to be helpful to me.
And maybe just writing this here will be a part of the process..

I'm looking at my Path of Heart people, wondering and wandering about Right Livelihood.

A quick bit of background: I work as a bodyworker, using a technique called Body Harmony which is about my only regular-ish source of income right now. I love the work, it has plenty of Heart.
However, it's a slow process building a clientele in an area where those who like to work with this type of technique have little cash, and those with cash are pushing the envelope if they take a sports massage - think manicure and sangria land.
What's more, it's a very transient and seasonal population...

So..  as a single parent who's caring for two not-yet-teen boys around 90% of the time, with no financial input from their father..... we're needing another line of income here (and maybe even not just one...)

On my Heart Path there is also work helping a close and very dear friend set up the spanish arm of a uk charity Youth at Risk ..  a process which has it's own rhythm, intimately bound up with spanish bureaucracy (yeah - fun?!). This too can eventually bring income... translating for initial projects (the course will have to come form the uk at the start) and also fund raising.

Not a solution with a quick turnaround... but very much part of my path of heart.

So... (again) this is the part I'm needing some Gaian feedback with...  I've been into supergreens for some time, buying organic locally is not always easy.. so I use a product to help replace nutritionally what I might provide for myself direct from the veg box/farmer's market elsewhere. I had been planning to introduce it to the local market on a wider scale, translating promotional material, buying book translation rights etc..  and then I learned that the home company, in Provo, is suffering from integrity withdrawal. As the bard would have said, there is something rotten in the state of Utah.

Okaaaay I said.. (was a bit more drawn out than that really) ... more of an Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy .. sh#@t! ... mm... what now?

I've been offered the opportunity of another superfood product which it's hoped will be opening up a european market soon ... it could be a perfect solution ... the company seems to  have integrity at it's core, fair trade growing associates, tithing from profits, a fair compensation plan, but I'm feeling a little burned from previous experience here.

Does anyone out there know anything personal-experience-wise about this company?

And while we're here (if anyone but me actually is here - well, the dog just got up and yawned at me - if he's the voice of the many, I really appreciate that YOU are still reading!) what exactly IS my problem with direct sales? Other than that it's also known as network marketing and (oh nooo) pyramid selling...
I mean, I won't be making lists of the top 100 friends and contacts I never want to see again after I'm done bugging them with my latest 'opportunity'... but there's plenty of judgemental baggage out there in the collective human experience that I would rather not butt up against in my daily round just doing my job.

Does anyone have an input here for me? .... on the upside or the downside?
I realise you folks here are the biggest collective of friends I trust with a question of integrity like this.... and I realise I feel a little wobbly putting the question out here .. it all feels a little bit too ME centred. But I also have this BIG responsability - called raising my kids.

Ok - I'm done, except to say that one of my fave astrologer/psychotherapists has repeatedly said that my chart is that of a wealthy woman who would do well running her own business (those looking for future donations - form an orderly queue, and be prepared to wait!) and that with a hyper-aspected grand trine in Earth signs.. I need to do something involving 'stuff', rather than ideas or other such ephemera.

Hopefully
Lindsay lynx

They sound like some sort of bucolic nymph scoffing the favoured insects of the goddess on an urn in a dusty museum storeroom ... fortunately, they are so much more!!
Andalucia's totem avian.... heralds of spring....



They swoop like multiple multi-coloured darts on the wing .. nest in burrows in sandy banks .. and they sound of their song.. oh boy... like water burbling and babbling through the air.. bubbles of it rise through blood and lymph and bone when they sing.

They just got back from wintering in Africa.. the joy of their stories of casbah's, oasis, sands and arid earth  bring the firey sun on towards zenith.

Gee.. you wanna hear it you'll just have to come!

So I finally met up with a real-life zaadzster / gaian last week... 's funny how zaadzster sounds like something in particular, and gaians is just, like, 'all of us' - right?!  Like that.

It was a laugh to see how my first-real-life-gaian/zaadzster-meeting panned out ..  in a silent satsang so not much chance for my fave gum-flapping excercises and gathering of titbits of life story and experiences, shared or otherwise  .. but, ah,  plenty of presence there.. ... new, unusual, strange and expanding experience to have contact with someone through messages, shout-outs n such, and then to feel them sit alongside me as a another familiar energy in a group.. and then to turn and see an unfamiliar and apparently unknown face beside me... wow, hey, freaky too!

So this is me n tilsmore sitting ...Silently ....


and here's where we did get to exchange some snippets of life-experience over some divine food....


You can see my over-excited jaw shooting the breeze!

So next time I'm gonna arrange to meet up with an online buddy .. it's gonna be somewhere we can chew the fat to our (mutual) heart's content.... though silence has such a sweetness it took me straight where I needed to be. I'm still grateful for having been there, for being reminded of there .... will always be grateful for being there :-)

bless you tils 

The King has got no clothes on!!

Ojos de Brujo means Eyes of a Wizard. It doesn't take the eyes of a wizard to see the fire and light in this magical part of the globe!
Sending some out to y'all to help birth all the plans, projects and other babies we've all got on our heart paths of being that change :-D

Well this of course ... silly! 
 ;-)

(just joking bout the 'silly' bit Siona!)

Ok so this is probably my 'During' blog i mentioned a couple of posts ago.

I'd have responded till recently that avoidance has been my default position for most of my life... followed closely by bending myself out of shape to attain some kind of fake resolution for all concerned ('cept myself of course.. so that didn't last lol!)

But here it comes:

So the emotion wells up, and I feel small, and insufficient to the task. Only it's me that's being called upon here, cos the conflicts here, right here, in my lap.
It's traipsing through my life, my days, my day-to-day cos the conflict's with the father of my brood, and we're dealing with the ego-pain of oh-i-need-you, you're-my-kids, another-wombman's-not-taking-them-away-from-me .. etc... goddam... i never did and never would and never tried to and can't you f--ing see that it's that way...
well no, obviously you can't, or we wouldn't be here.

So we take it up a notch. Sit. Breathe. Pray with thought, intention, vision, compassion, discernment. Mighty support, seen and unseen is called upon. And replies with grace. 

Prana flows it's healing balm. Now has it's power and is invoked.

Keep me clear .. I pray to myself.
Keep me sane. Centred.
Breathe.

Having been totally inspired by some of the Love Fest posts over the weekend, I figured it was as well to roll it on into Monday. So here's my favourite love song so far this year. It might seem like an odd choice, but it so speaks to me of how immense the LOVE has gotta be ...



Gotta scoot out right now.. will come back later and post the lyrics.

Have a LOVING MONDAY !! xx