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March 2009 
What is your relationship to conflict?
Posted on Apr 16th, 2008
by 
Lynx
Lynx
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for April 15, 2008:
Ok so this is probably my 'During' blog i mentioned a couple of posts ago.
I'd have responded till recently that avoidance has been my default position for most of my life... followed closely by bending myself out of shape to attain some kind of fake resolution for all concerned ('cept myself of course.. so that didn't last lol!)
But here it comes:
So the emotion wells up, and I feel small, and insufficient to the task. Only it's me that's being called upon here, cos the conflicts here, right here, in my lap.
It's traipsing through my life, my days, my day-to-day cos the conflict's with the father of my brood, and we're dealing with the ego-pain of oh-i-need-you, you're-my-kids, another-wombman's-not-taking-them-away-from-me .. etc... goddam... i never did and never would and never tried to and can't you f--ing see that it's that way...
well no, obviously you can't, or we wouldn't be here.
So we take it up a notch. Sit. Breathe. Pray with thought, intention, vision, compassion, discernment. Mighty support, seen and unseen is called upon. And replies with grace.
Prana flows it's healing balm. Now has it's power and is invoked.
Keep me clear .. I pray to myself.
Keep me sane. Centred.
Breathe.
I'd have responded till recently that avoidance has been my default position for most of my life... followed closely by bending myself out of shape to attain some kind of fake resolution for all concerned ('cept myself of course.. so that didn't last lol!)
But here it comes:
So the emotion wells up, and I feel small, and insufficient to the task. Only it's me that's being called upon here, cos the conflicts here, right here, in my lap.
It's traipsing through my life, my days, my day-to-day cos the conflict's with the father of my brood, and we're dealing with the ego-pain of oh-i-need-you, you're-my-kids, another-wombman's-not-taking-them-away-from-me .. etc... goddam... i never did and never would and never tried to and can't you f--ing see that it's that way...
well no, obviously you can't, or we wouldn't be here.
So we take it up a notch. Sit. Breathe. Pray with thought, intention, vision, compassion, discernment. Mighty support, seen and unseen is called upon. And replies with grace.
Prana flows it's healing balm. Now has it's power and is invoked.
Keep me clear .. I pray to myself.
Keep me sane. Centred.
Breathe.
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I have been there, and done that! and all I know for sure is that 14 years later, I am so grateful to have found the courage to move through that situation of horror and stuckness to a place where we have all been able to thrive…. my thoughts and prayers are with you…. love Jane
“Prana flows it's healing balm. Now has it's power and is invoked.”
As I braile my way through my current challenges, it is becoming apparent that prana is key to healing the body/ mind. The heart closes in the face of conflict. As a consequence, we become starved for life energy. Cravings, addiction, and depression result. It is so good to know I am not alone. Sending you love and best wishes in your journey to yourself.
your friends are here with you, dear one, have courage, keep breathing, you are loved
Sending you love and hugs for your journey, your brood will learn from you and love you for it.
Thankyou all so much… Zephyr your comment today was so timely. Some things were being stirred up, and I needed the reminder to stay centred, calm and up-a-notch.
And to realise I hadn't said thankyou to everyone for their understanding, sharing, being here, thoughts and presence.
Big hugs and love back to you all! x
Indeed…Your Sisters are Here with you.
We Understand. We've been here…and may be again.
We are strong Women.
Hear us Roarrrrr :-D
Sending you Loooove~~~<3